Oh my goodness, I have SO much on the boil right now! I'm still trying to finish the sample Bunny Love mittens and the other samples of the mittens I designed, as well as designing MORE knitting patterns. I'm also in the middle of making a large batch of about 40 spindles for the Bendigo Sheep & Wool Show in July (BIG love to Charly at ixCHeL Yarn & Fibre who will be selling the Whorled Domination! spindles on my behalf - I'm SO excited to have a presence at Bendi, as it's the biggest yarn & fibre festival in Australia every year!)
So yeah, life is pretty damn good right about now :D I have come to a very important realisation that I don't need anyone else to make me happy - I can be in a beautiful state of bliss and joy and love all on my own (which is where I have spent most of the last couple of weeks) :) I mean sure, being in a relationship would be nice because I'd get to share life with someone special - but it's not something I *need*. At this point I'd have to say that a relationship would be just icing on the cake for me, because life is so sweet - my creativity is in full flow, my designs are getting a lot of attention and sales and I'm starting to make money from my work, and my spindles are creating something of a storm for fellow fibreholics :D Can't ask for much more than that, I'm quite excited and happy that people are so keen on the things I can make ;)
I have long held the belief that I can't contribute anything useful to a relationship unless I can love and appreciate myself first and know that I deserve everything good that comes to me - and the last few weeks have really driven that home. I have had a few conversations with friends who are lonely and feel unfulfilled without a partner, and I'm glad I am not in the space that says I need someone else in my life to tell me that I am worthwhile or validate me. I'd like to think there is someone out there who can walk with me and not need to cause drama or do anything but be herself - but if I never find her, it won't matter, because I am fulfilled and happy where I am right now :) I don't have a lot of material things, but I don't need them - I have never done ANYTHING in my life for the money, and am very happy to be able to make enough money to live on from doing something I enjoy as much as my fibre arts :D
I have so much right now - amazing friends who support me no matter what and love and accept me as I am; work that I love with a passion to put food on the table and make me smile; amazing kids who never cease to surprise me and make me laugh, and probably the biggest thing of all, HOPE.
Yes, I am an eternal optimist - no matter how much shit I go through I seem to always bounce back and find the silver lining in everything (and I'm grateful for that, because it DOES make life a lot easier in the long run if I'm not stressing about everything or finding/creating drama where it doesn't need to be made). I have a lot of love to give the right person - but if I never found anyone to share that with, I can honestly say that my life as it is right now is full of everything I need and makes me happy :) I really am blessed - how many people can say that the work that puts food on their table is something that they love as much as I do? And I may not have hundreds of friends, but those I do have are incredible people who I love very much and know I can trust without question :)
So to all of my friends - thank you, you make my life so much richer xxx